jing rocks!

2009-10-01T04:03:00.000-07:00

ive got too many things going on all at the same time.

i need to set my priorities and tune out all the unnecessary stuff.

no time to feel down.
do it do it!

2008-12-10T05:43:00.001-08:00

i have my reasons.

but i shouldnt name it.

i shouldnt.

so many things which i cant do.

no talking, no chatting.
no talking to self, no writing.

its weird isnt it.
im not the only one say certain stuff.
but why are the ending so different. so wrong?

i think i should be born dumb.

2008-12-09T11:45:00.000-08:00

funnily,

i thought of this space, almost exactly a year later.

so is my mood.

maybe i tend to feel this way during the last month of the year.

i feel really bad, i dont know what to do to make it right again.
maybe it was never right.

i dont know why i am what i am now.
i dont know if its too bothering.

its pretty much a chaos. my life right now is a chaos.

if i am this rotten, why am i still here?
i dont deserve a life. or is life after death, too good a place for me?

i dont want to be this pessimistic. i dont know why i am this pessimistic.
i know ultimately, nobody will care at all. because they get sick of my nonsense.
but you know, i cant help it.

i have no one to turn to.
i resort to writing, but it seems like its wrong again.
i was merely talking to myself.

i saw a depressed soul today. the scars on her, the look she had on her face.
no, i dont want to be like her.
it's terrifying. it is.

how can i walk out of this alone.
you said you'll be here, will you really be?

or when time ripe, you aall will choose to ditch me again?

who do i probe my questions to?
why am i they way i am.
why i tell myself to change, but it aint changing.

you know thats why i want to get out of here.
i want a new life somewhere, where nobody knows me.
i hope to start afresh.

2007-12-02T17:41:00.000-08:00

omg.
split is here again, i killed the other half.

i hope everyone forgets this space because i'm rather lazy to start a new one.

if you ever enter this link accidentally, pls do ignore this lunatic here. :)

somehow, i believe one knows when he/she is dying.
there's many things i believe in too.
previous life, after death, the death visiting those they missed.
maybe im superstitious, i'm not denying it, nor admitting. HAHA.

that's because, i dont know when i'm dying yet.
sometimes i feel life is the end, but it's not.
so maybe, there isnt such a thing.

life is really fragile, like the heart of one.

so in case im gone, maybe 10 years down the road or anything.
please remember me. i known i've been bad.
like ive said before im not a saint, and of cos i'm not perfect.
but i hope people rmb my goods.
it's better for you, because there's lesser to rmb.

it's not hard isnt it?
when the wind blows, rmb my good.
when it rains, rmb my tears.
when it's bright & sunny, remember the lovely times we once shared.

maybe it is a phase of life, the phase of growing up and old.

when you look back, the paths you had taken might not be right. but you can't erase those foot steps away, the way i cant erase my mean doings from your mind. the way i shouted at you, my loves, the way i made you feel like killing me, the way i made you fumed. esp the way i said things. we all know, we are all so reserved, we dont tell each other how much we loved each other, or how handsome or pretty you looked. we are all stingy people on good comments, generous in the mean.

everyone had been great, no one had tried to kill me after all my doings.
i'm a pain in many's neck.
i'm stubborn and i know i have this attitude.
i cant change it because it doesnt make me, me.
the way i spend money like water even though my family is poor.
the way i say things out harshly because i dont feel like talking.
the way i look at you when im mad.
the way i blogged things out irregardless of the consequences.

i know many think that im childish. many think that spaces like this are for happier things. but in my sense, it's fake, somehow people chose to censor things away. no one can only blog about the happy stuffs, because your life is not all happy actually. because my brain is of pea size, because i'm not magnanimous enough to forget the bad in life, i have to pen things down here. of cos i could have made this private, and so yes, a part of me somewhere yearns for attention because i nv had one. because i can never get attentions in the positive ways, thus i chose the negatives. i know this is not wise, but this is me. if you cant stay, pls leave but if you want my attention too, you can jolly well stay. HAHA.

i'm going to say how much i love everyone who had been here in my life.
my flowers, not forgetting the grasses, everyone including my enemies, long lost friends. be it laughters, tears, anger, frustrations or even gossips you brought into my life. my life will never be my life without the participations from all of you. you all made me real, too real infact. no matter how disapprove of me you are, how much you dislike me, i still want to thank you. i love all those who onced loved, or are still loving me.

i won't say life is perfect, nor my life is great, but there isnt any regrets if i were to die now. not like why am i not a millionaire when i die, or why am i not ms singapore yet kinda stuff.

we always say we want to cherish every moment in life, but we had never done so.
i dont think anyone can do that, actually.

in life,
my lost is your gain,
my gain is your lost.
everyone cannot be happy altogether.
therefore, nobody is always happy, nobody is always mad.

this is so random, im not going to make it sound philosophical anyway.

deni jus reminded me this.
she once told me that she wanted everyone to die after her, so she beg for pardon.
but for me, i need to beg for more pardons, because i hope everyone will die together. the end of world of something. when no one will cry for the deceased.

and if there really is after death.
we will all be in the same world again, 'life' resumes somehow.

so one week.
i give myself one week to enjoy my life to the utmost.
we shall see where it will lead to.
jus one week.
i'll be different.
i promise.

because we once cared too much, so we should care less to make things better.
because how i've never made things right,
because how we looked too much into the past.
because how things will never be the same, because nothing can ever be the same.
we are moving, changing, growing.

what a wonderful gift from god.
lives.

many a times, nobody wants to listen to me.
and this may be the only way out.

2007-10-18T00:41:00.001-07:00

hello
im surprisingly here.

just to inform again,
ive shifted to lj.

jeywhyann.livejournal.com

:)

2007-10-04T00:04:00.000-07:00

♥i'm gone.

♥Try Looking For Me.

♥Oh yes, i won't be deleting this space away cos afterall, it's deni's, rina's and my baby.

2007-10-02T21:56:00.000-07:00

I AM OUTTA JOB AGAIN.

Reason being I can't start work ASAP due to my yet to come/or not POX.

BOOOOOOOO.

Now who is going to support my sprees?

2007-09-27T23:34:00.000-07:00

ktv laughs at TPE.

even though it's just like 4 months ago but it felt like a century.

it takes 2 hands to clap.
but only 1 to slap.

so which one do all of you prefer?

2007-09-26T16:44:00.000-07:00

do you know how much i want to scream

but then again,
i will be kicking a big fuss perhaps out of nothing.

No chicken pox pls.

2007-09-25T23:20:00.000-07:00

中秋节快乐！

Is my pose High Fashion enough?

lanterns awaiting to be set on fire.

jon is superbly adorable with tt lantern

my bent candle but it failed to set my lantern on fire. Better luck next year.

jon screamed, threw his lantern and ran away after witnessing the first burning lantern.

i love my niece!

Pre Happy **th Birthday MAMA.

I, myself think that I have not done anything wrong nor offended anyone too and thus I do not deserve this.

And..

I QUITED MY JOB ON THE FIRST DAY IF YOU DONT KNOW YET.

But..

I FOUND ANOTHER JOB, higher pay btw.

What's more?

I HAVE A HIGH POSSIBILITY OF GETTING CHICKEN POX COS MY SIS IS HAVING IT RIGHT NOW.

So much happenings...

Just for laughs, they are going to KILL ME but, more to come.

video we took at the tw airport 4mths ago. peter aka ambu then, did sth hilarious and so we decided to film this.

2007-09-24T00:40:00.000-07:00

We had a day spent at the other end of Singapore on Saturday but it felt like going outta Singapore to me.

I so finally set my feet on the land of Holland Village and Botanic Garden too!

Our desserts.

We are supposed to pick a few of those.

and choose you favourite flavour!

Ta-dah! Our white choc & cheesecake ice cream with rocky road and strawberries!

He finished everything. HAHA.

Alright, most of the time i forgot that i had a camera with me and so the lack of pictures.

TIME TO SLEEP!
After enjoying myself for like 2 weeks, IT'S TIME to go back to work!
God bless me on my new job.

Thank you for all the rejections.

2007-09-21T02:01:00.000-07:00

Hello all. I think it's gonna be a long time i will be back here again.
Reason being, i found a new job with damn irregular hours.
Yours truly here will be working at mediacorp as a producer asst from monday onwards.
I will then, have the working hours of a celebrity and work round the clock.
God Bless My Face.

And freaking Hilton only called me today when I had already accepted Mediacorp's offer.
FATE.

Afew pics from the past week. And they are too, evidences of me putting on weight.

pancake face 1.

pan cake face 2.

that's bintan for you.

the beautiful sunset.

the ambience that can never be found here. pan cake face 3.

2007-09-15T23:21:00.000-07:00

you want to know what i know you know about?

i know everybody is mad at me.

for tons of reasons, reasonable or unreasonable ones.

just shoot me.

2007-09-12T00:06:00.000-07:00

now i gather all folks (you you you and you), that is my friends and family, my dear&love ones.
may we sit in a circle.
hand in hand.
and pray that wed and thu will be a breeze.

i love you all.

For my enlightenment.

2007-09-10T23:06:00.000-07:00

For my enlightenment.

Perfection.
Imperfection.
i've come to realise that quarrels often arise because of perfection/imperfection.
we always expect others to be perfect, but then again, we allow ourselves to be imperfection.
when others give us name, badmouth us all we do is to rant at how horrible they are to do so. but hello, look at ourselves, i won't say we deserve that, but we do what they do too.
we blamed people for hating us, for leaving us, for fighting with us. at times, we just got to reflect on how we used to treat them too.
we seek for the perfect one but we are not even perfect. how absurd.

afterall, we just got to accept imperfections. that's what life is about.

2007-09-10T02:09:00.000-07:00

being alone is the 'in' thing now.
the next 'in' thing?
being ignorant by not acknowledging mails and msgs.
and extremely hilarious when i'm trying to do people a favour, just shoot me that im KPO.
yes just make me laugh till i get choked and die.

HOW COOL is that?

and i'm truly bothered by the issue raised today.
may god bless me.
and i allow you to laugh at me for being stressed over this.

go on, go ahead!

2007-09-08T12:40:00.000-07:00

freedom
once again.

as free as free willy.

Haha.

2007-09-03T16:44:00.000-07:00

my stinkbomb.
just trying this out.

2007-09-02T19:01:00.000-07:00

Very Random.

I hope these mini-s taste nice.

deni, this is for you!

We caught Evan Almighty yday tgt with steph and sharon. they left before i rmb i had a camera with me. sorry babes!! White shoes are so "in", thank god i had them on too! HAHA.

Yday was rina's "makeover" day too! The Egyptian queen and jiang jun.
A day of lovelies. Happy teachers' day jiang jun!

the top tt made me looked like a balloon.

Strangers better get their noses outta my affairs, dont poke your noses in- the way my creamy does. I would, suggest them to read the Straits times daily to keep up with current affairs, not the passe issues. Thank you very much. I won't be bothered to be kind here.

oh i forgot to mention,
if you rmb again, the dreadful day we had sakae buffet, the day we swore never to have sushi again in 2 years,
we just did,
today.

2007-08-29T21:05:00.000-07:00

i am a 20 years old trapped in a body of an 80 years old ah mah.
i swear my muscles are tearing and my bones are breaking.
ask me why.
good question.
now give me an answer. please?

i had a long weekend as i wished for the other time if you rmb, or that you have the patience and search it under my archives.
save your troubles, just trust me.
yes i did mention.
and a wish came true.
i started work today. 4-day weekends, 3-day weekdays.
but i'm still having blues!
i'm having the everyday blues!
sunday-thursday blues cos i have to work the nxt day.
friday blues cos friday= monday is coming.
saturday blues cos saturday= monday is coming soon!
i know i'm making my own life miserable.

OH HOW MUCH I MISS SCHOOL!
i swear i will go back to school within 2 years.

and i was nearly late for work this morning,
all becos i can't find my pouch, which contains my house key and EZ link.
i woke my parents up, took their keys and ez link and ran out!
spoilt my mood= spoilt my day TOTALLY.

if you know me,
you will know that i can multi-task very well.
and so, there i was eating, printing formal letters, and texting all together.
TA DAH! tragedy strikes.
I bit my mouth (inner, right) while eating, and immediately a PAPER CUT on my lip (outer, left)!
I know you love sausages, so do i, but not ON MY LIP!

DONT MULTI TASK.

But i'm still a happy 20years old girl. :)

oh yes, i came up with a wishlist and hopefully they are evolving into a shoppinglist SOON.

seafood feast
holiday
longer hair- keep this as a wish
perm hair- as a wish too
heels
my LV monogram vernis purse
my LV NOE bag
my white skinny
my topshop dress
okay i dont want to go on anymoreeeeeeeeeeeee.

2007-08-27T00:14:00.000-07:00

Happy 21stBirthday sis!

It's a lovely Monday afternoon free from Monday blues as yours truely here, skipped work once again. I'm having this love/hate kinda of stuff going on with menses. I hate menses cos it gives me PMS occasionally and cramps very often, I love mense cos it de-bloats me BUT then again I WON'T BE BLOATED if there isnt mense in the first place- SO I LOVE/HATE menses. Oh wells, a girl gotta do what a girl gotta do. Yes, enough of menses. I'm going to squeeze myself into a ball and roll on my bed soon.

I am seriously in love now. In love with the Singapore weather. This whole weather made our little red spot, sunny island feels like somewhere overseas. I just want to enjoy being a tourist here, roaming around freely with the cool air blowing in my face. But it's all not going to happen cos I'm going back to freeze in my office again tmrw just like any other days. And an interview tmrw after work, wish me luck.

2007-08-26T20:30:00.000-07:00

ostracized.
and you dont understand it.
you all dont.

thank you very much.

this joke is not funny AT ALL.

2007-08-23T19:43:00.000-07:00

i want a getaway to runaway!!

2007-08-20T19:32:00.000-07:00

i see repetitions.

let me see something new.

growing up is really really bad.
does being 20 makes me an adult?
and bearing a whole load of responsibilities?

and if we are all grown ups now,
why do we/you all not think like adults?
and not even the adult-adult to think maturely?

what IS your definition of being understanding then?

I am NOT guilty of ANY of your childish assumptions.
So please, do both you and i a favour.
Think like an adult.

2007-08-15T22:31:00.000-07:00

i'm tired.
i'm tired of feeling tired every single day.
i need a break.

i'm sleepy, i don't get a chance to use my brain.
i want to sleep till the sun shine on my butt.
i want to sleep till i feel so sick when i wake up.
i want to dream till i cant wake up on time.

i need to talk to somebody but i dont know who to turn to.
i dont know who is the right person to talk to.

i want to see my friends.
i want to talk, laugh, shop and eat with all of them.

i want to see my bfriend as and when i want to.

i want a life.

but right now,
i seriously need a chat with someone close.

2007-08-13T00:07:00.000-07:00

i can hardly balance.

think about it.

2007-08-06T20:02:00.000-07:00

Happy 20th Birthday to Auggie!
(No pics yet)

Happy 21st Birthday to Charlene!
After much celebrations, i guessed we have all gained alil weight.

All that were present.

we hope you enjoyed and like the presents too!

Riverside Indonesian Restaurant.

Few of our crazy shots.

i will update soon!!!!

i forgot to post a pic of my super duper adorable nephew.

okay, pictures.

2007-07-29T20:09:00.000-07:00

It was TGIF a minute ago and now it's the pre-monday blues syndrome.
I was just telling charlene on friday morning that a week should have 2wkdays and 2wkends to be fair. But well, if that's too much to ask for, make it 4-3, 4 wkdays and 3 wkends.

BUT IT'S NOT, NO I MEAN NEVER, GOING TO HAPPEN AT ALL!

Another 5 days before a short break. Sleep at 10pm and wake up at 6am. And my dark rings isnt getting better at all! They became worst, and that proves that I'M REALLY NOCTURNAL.

My only grumble for the job is, I have to wake up early, I dont have enough clothes to wear, I tend to eat alot, I dont have anything much to do-yet and the pay is not coming in! Okay, that's a few grumbles, I shouldn't have used the words "only" and "is".

5 days to weekend.
10 days to see bfriend again.

And I really cant wait to watch the secret, though i'm totally not a fan of jay chou.

2007-07-24T23:54:00.000-07:00

gwad.
the time reads 2355 and im still awake,
i have to wake up at 6 plus!!
i dont know why i cant sleep since im kind of tired.

but the purpose of this entry is,
the doctor told me that the scar is going to STAY!
maybe jus lighten abit in time to come but its gg to stay.
it really looks like a worm stucked on my skin.

and he too, suggested that i put a tattoo on it.

yesyes, soon soon, but what a weird place for a tattoo.

0000hrs now. 2 more days!

0day afriends.
12days bfriend.

2007-07-24T00:15:00.000-07:00

BOO! Surprises! The ugly scar.

days back.

it only seemed like its getting uglier as days passed. i shall put a tattoo on it.

going back to the hospital tmrw. i shall kill the doctor.

Anyway, work was fine. Maybe it's just the first day. HAHA. But the damn fujitsu desktop is s-e-r-i-o-u-s-l-y SLOW! I think i spent 4 hours waiting for it to load each time i edit and save. and i dont understand why i can get so hungry sitting there. my tummy growled real loud, twice. before and after lunch. this is BAD.
OFF DAY TMRW!

2007-07-22T02:18:00.000-07:00

First and foremost, let me make myself clear, I AM A CERTIFIED YWA already!
And that makes our whole clique totally YWAs, 大学生 and 保家卫国 guys. No more jia liao bi (eat-waste-rice), we are all useful people to our society.

Starting work on Mon, and let's hope that everything goes well, everything is gonna be a breeze! Same goes for dorothy who is also a YWA from Mon onwards! No more late nights, sleep-till-the sun-shine-on-your-butt kinda stuff anymore. I hope I can kick the habit of sleeping at 4am daily cultivated years back. In this way, I can finally have beauty sleep (10pm to 2am) for even better complexion (did i mention my complexion is getting better now?) and bid goodbyes to 8 yr old dark rings!! Mama will not miss you both so please dont come back and haunt me ever again!

And with normal routine sleeping hours, I need exercise to maintain a healthy lifestyle! We, the girls, are not going to lose to those 保家卫国 guys!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Lets pray that everything will go according to plan.

Post happy racial harmony day! (21st july)

4 more days to 27th! (;

2007-07-20T17:00:00.000-07:00

We (aug, char, clif, dor, wei and myself) had Sakae Sushi Dinner Buffet a few days back.
Not much pictures as most of the time we were busy eating like this...

before which, we had a bad time waiting for our table.

and her peas, on which they told me a funny incident between those peas and dorothy.

Busy clicking and eating.. while waiting for Aug n Clif to arrive.

The very nice mochi yam ice cream.

Our target was to eat till the subtotal of at least 120 bucks as there were 6 of us eating. Halfway through..

Lastly, our very adorable couple of the day. who cant start bickering whether to join in the buffet or not.

we swear never to eat sushi buffet in 2 years.

Anyway, after much swearing last night, i took up a jobbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbb.

2007-07-19T22:38:00.000-07:00

I'm sorry but I'm very stressed up now.
I know... I'm not working, I'm not studying but I still feel this way. There's actually quite
a few issues I'm handling with, or rather unable to handle.

Nothing to do.
Dont know which job offer to take.
No friends.
No boyfriend.
No money to spend.
No good food to eat.
I cant even enjoy a nice hot bath cos the heater is burnt.
There's simply nothing to feel a tinge of happiness about.

That's why I'm mental now. I get emotional over NOTHING or so i thought.

And I actually believe that there's such a thing as FATE, which is totally SHIT.

PS: i forgot to mention that im seriously b-r-o-k-e. so pls only date me to nearby places with sk or hg or tm. loves.

2007-07-18T01:56:00.000-07:00

URGENT!

THE Wedding Agency is
looking for ELIGIBLE HUSBANDS.

Requirements:

Age limit of 25 years old
At least 1.8m in height (chao chao 1.70m la)
Degree holder (Dip/A level holders may try too)
Monthly income of at least 4k (5k la)
Must not be overweight
Good looking (we want pretty kids)
Staying at the NE of Singapore (Overseas is fine too)
No prior experience needed

If you think you qualify the requirements, youre the man we're looking for. Please send in your resume, a short description of your personality, why we should take you and attach a passport size photo along.

We regret to inform that only shortlisted candidates will be contacted for interviews.

Pls email the above mentioned to chan_denise87@hotmail.com.

PS: Not restricted to males only, cute bungs/butches/girls can apply too!

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHA!
the aftermaths of too much job hunting.

even after so long, im so proud of myself that i have to do this,

day 9.
9days.

2007-07-16T02:40:00.000-07:00

I just want to mention how unlucky i am, or rather how ridiculous the event was.
DID YOU KNOW, YOUR SHOWER HEATER CAN ACTUALLY BURN?

I was taking my usual favourite long shower, rubbing the foam and just when I want to turn on the shower head, i smelt something burning. AND TO MY HORROR, i saw black smoke coming out from that freaking heater box!!!! I tried to turn the tap, which TO MY HORROR x2 (again) was like 100 deg celsius HOT! Dumb enough, i used my fingers to test the water temperature which was like 100 deg celsuis HOT TOO! or maybe hotter than that, that i kinda burnt my fingers.

I WAS SO AFRAID THAT THE BOX WILL EXPLODE AND I STOOD as far from that box as possible. Mind you, I'm still covered with foam all over if you remember. THANK GOD I HAD MY MOBILE WITH ME, (i know its strange to bring your mobile in when youre showering but i was texting my dears) and so I DIALED MY HOME NO AND SCREAMED AT MY MUM TO SWITCH OFF THAT HEATER POWER. Thank you to the one who was texting with (yes, see this 2 wks later) if not I would have splatter blood in my bathroom, like BOOM!!! sparks and fire and flames and blood with flesh and bones.

I rinsed off the foam with tap, and smokes of course.

2007-07-15T15:00:00.000-07:00

i'm so like beginning to love kids. yes i know how surprising that really sounds like. im surprised too!

my niece!

mr jon jon!

lil nicholas.

see! they are my new loves. i havent got a pic of my pretty lil cousin but just as adorable as the above.

anyway, im at the most torturous moment of my life. all my friends are either ywa or da xue sheng alr, im the only one left who is still trying real hard to be ywa too. moreover, my dearest is away. wish me luck people!

be safe and i hope to see u real soon.

2007-07-14T02:41:00.000-07:00

Friday the 13th.

It's a freaking unlucky day. We met afew sick-in-the-mind kinda people. To begin with, we met 2 very attitude staff at Cafe Carte* PS. They should really send their staff for training, i mean real serious tough training, if not just fire them. Maybe it's all because we dont pay service charge over there. BUT STILL, holy pieces of shit.

Afterwhich, we headed to the starbucks beside it. Alfresco. This stupid aunty wanted to force us to donate to some old ppl, like those who survived WWII. It's not like we dont want to donate, but pls mind your own attitude and manners. Reprimanding us and even scolding us chee by* is not going to help. Moreover, you are not suppose to do that in a mall, not even when you claim that you are doing a good deed. Not at all.

that stupid cafe.

gg-to-be-botak-soon.

latecomers.

that starbucks.

wear green! pure coincidental.

my shaky hands.

YWA, jia liao bi and da xue sheng.

Someone has got to be the stronger one. Let me be the one. It's not that I didnt mind, but I just dont want to make it worst. You'll understand, I know.

2007-07-13T01:14:00.000-07:00

Sadistic stuffs.

After the removal of stitches. Just as ugly as before.

2 days later. Still as gross.

Scar really look like scars. You know those we usually draw on cartoons and stuff like that.
EWE.

2007-07-12T11:12:00.000-07:00

Photos uploaded to album!
Thank you all for everything.
The effort, the fun, your presence.

Indulgz Bistro. Thanks lovelies, sweeties.

i always love her cards. Ms Tan.

Happy Birthdays!

Breko cafe.

Great big hugs.

78910 :)

2007-07-08T01:30:00.000-07:00

A day at my ah mah's house.

Weekends are almost always spent at my ah mah's place.

my nephew.

my nephews. aint they jus undeniably adorable.

see what i mean. anyway i think it's in our genes.

and we managed to play the new wii! my cousin's.

Golf. SO FUN.

His golf pose. He scolded 'oh shit man' when he lost a game, mind you he is only 4 yrs old. Then we went, 'jon, who taught you that?'. During another game, someone scolded 'wah lan eh', we went, 'jon dont learn that!'. And when I was playing, I scolded 'fuck!' when i missed a ball and I got a real hard stare and cold from my sis, which i scolded fuck againnnnnnnnnn. HAHA.

her golf pose.

I think i prefer playing tennis and baseball. I want a wii too! So just let me win the millions dollar toto soon. HAHA. Muscle ache is here to stay after playing wiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!

Happy Birthday to ME!

2007-07-07T02:21:00.000-07:00

DID I mention how much i miss SEAFOOD? No prawns, no clams, no crabs, such a torture.

And how much i miss hanging out with them. We are all gonna be either uni students or YWA, i doubt we'll have tt much time to meet up alr...

of course with lots of you ppl who are not in the pic. you know who you are :)

2007-07-03T09:05:00.000-07:00

okay some updates on my lovely wound.
have to treat it with extra love, care and concern so that it will heal speedily AND I CAN ENJOY SEAFOOD ASAP!

super itchy ya know. the very ugly dressing tt the polyclinic did for me.

haha the disgusting wound. 5 stitches i think, with lots of bruising.

SO FREAKING UNPLEASANT TO THE EYES.

2007-07-01T23:04:00.000-07:00

Friend.
Friends.

Friend?
How lovely.

too much to ask for.
i guess.

Anyway, my wound seemed infected. I was told once its red= infected. Its been 2days of redness and its purple now. So is it still infected? Seriously speaking, i cant be bothered. It was ugly previously and its going to have a scar there after removing the stitches, and an even uglier scar if its infected. Simply no difference at all. So I made myself go through all the pain and suffering for, actually, nothing. How sweet.

I dont care and nobody does. Not even my parents. I feel like a fool. Why am I so foolish?

And now I feel stupid. Stupidity gets you nowhere.

I like this. the long pig tail. my hair.

deni bought this kuku glasses. nearly broke the kuku-o-meter too!

Perhaps you think im ridiculous. Sometimes i think so too. And im quite sure of my own oversensitivity. But still, i expect too much, or rather, too little. I loathe expectations.

Happy Birthday Jaysher!

for my reference yet again.

2007-06-29T00:26:00.000-07:00

for my reference yet again

freaking surgery at cgh today.
waited from 1230 to 1700hr and the surgery is only for like 30mins.
sucha waste of my time.

the stupid dressing is alr half filled with blood.

I didnt get to see what they had removed, neither do i know how many stitches i had. I shall find out tmrw when i change the dressing at the polyclinic. dreads, more waiting time again!!

stitches only to be removed on 9th july and so im gg to spend my birthday with me stitches. how sweet.

2007-06-28T02:05:00.000-07:00

OMG!
The freaking surgery is gonna be in like WHAT? 12 HOURS!
God bless.

2007-06-26T23:38:00.000-07:00

Where's the balance?
What is it and how do i achieve it?
How do you even rate it?

2007-06-22T17:52:00.000-07:00

A cousin of mine sent me this email on horoscope. Okay I know this whatcha going to say,
so was I, procrastinating whether to read it or not. Anyway, it says very true and accurate
as the email subject.

Haha. Oh well, the thing is, I find it accurate too!
Lemme show you, kinda long though. You may skip it, but the point here is it's quite accurate.

.......................................
CANCER WOMAN

When she is in love, she will act both ways. First, shy and polite trembling
to be near you. Second, attach to you like glue and trying to be with you
all the times. She will try to go home with you after work, or have every
lunch with you. It is O.K. if you like her too, but if is is not the case,
you will feel very uncomfortable.

She hates to be talked about or gossiped by someone else. If she knows she
will be very hurt. In nature she is a shy type, except she has been
influenced by some other Zodiac. She is not a brave or daring type, so if
you like her then you better be the one who start first. She will not accept
her true feeling, so if you like here you better tell her first.

She is like a musical note always change in tunes, so one minute she can be
funny and cheerful, and one minute she can be sad and depress. Other people
may think of her as "Over-acting", or "Over-reacting".

When she is depress, she will go out and look for things to make it up. She
loves money, and thinks of having "Money" as "happy", not as "God". She will
not look down at you if you do not have a lot of money, but she will help
you make money, save money. She is not an extravagant person and sometimes
will tell you not to buy her expensive and not useful gift.

She is the type who enjoy a long and quiet walk. Cancer woman also
influenced by the "moon", so under the moon light she will be fascinating
woman.

She has a constant fear for many things. She fear of not being smart enough,
not pretty enough. Even if she is not fat, she will not be satisfy. Assuring
her of her look would help, because she can change mood 4 times a day.

She is not stingy, but you will not surprise if you see she collecting old
or broken junks. She sees that everything are useful to her. She will find a
way to re-use it again some day. She is not a jealous type,but possessive.

The best part of her is that she will sacrifice everything for her love one
with no limit. Don't leave her in times of troubles, she will never forget
it. She is not a weak type, even she looks like one, Example if you argue
with her, she might cry her heart out. Once you left, she will wipe her
tears and start clean up her apartment normally.

I'm not sure about this but I hate kids for the time being.
She is a very careful mother and will look after her kids every steps of the
way. If she is a mother of your children, you are at ease, but if she is
your mother in law, you are in pain. Not to worry, this type of mother in
law will not let her own daughter being an "Old mate".

She could be moody and argue with you in many little things like many women,
but she always wait and want to take care of you. If you argue with her and
disappear a few days, she will be waiting for you, but not for long O.K.
This kind of testing is risky, try not to do it.

The Cancer woman need 2 things to be happy which are "Work" and "Love". She
can be live in a dusty house, but she can not live in that same house with
no Love. AND SO I NEED A JOB!

2007-06-19T16:42:00.000-07:00

after recovering for slightly more than a month, i am sick again!
get well soon!

2007-06-17T03:16:00.000-07:00

sometimes i just dont get it.
i know there are millions and millions of stuff that i dont understand, but this is different.
maybe i'm oversensitive.
or maybe u're insensitive.
i hope it's the former.
at least i know where the problem is.
and it's always with me.

10 more days.

anyway, i forgot to declare that my friendship with larrina is O-V-E-R!
reason being she refuse to give me one of her kidney when mine failed.
Haha.
I shall take care of my kidneys from now on.

and i nearly got hit by a car yday. twice, on the same road.
am i tt invisible?

2007-06-16T01:36:00.000-07:00

great minds think alike.

but only i know!

2007-06-12T16:42:00.000-07:00

Pics i failed to post when my internet was down.

Deni! i cant stop laughing at these 2 photos.
Trying some camera trick with another camera.

Wei's belated birthday celebration.

CCN day 2007

Last meal at Mensa 2. Favourite Chicken Chop.

they owned the 'brothers shoes'

zx's classic pose.

zoom zoom zoom!

xi nu ai le.

we r rich people!

we got high on caffeine.

2007-06-11T03:48:00.000-07:00

Dedication
To you.
I'm happy!
:)

I'm actually blessed with so many lovely people around me. My parents, my sister, my flowers, you know who you are.

Thank you all for still being here, through all my ups and downs. Here, putting through all my nonsenses and rubbishs. My stubborness, my weird temper, my everything.

Especially to aug, deni, lin and saimin for being on 24/7 availability for me. god bless your ears.

i heart all of you, you, you, you, you, yous and you!

2007-06-10T02:59:00.000-07:00

in the race of my life,
there's too many hurdles to overcome.
where is the finishing line?

when can i bid goodbyes. i loathe eternity.

Happy 20th Birthday SaiMin!!
i love you!!

2007-06-09T01:14:00.000-07:00

my brain juices are depleting, in short, im this close to being retarded.
hardly use my brain due to my laziness and partly because there aint any reason to do so.
i cant even be bothered to read a book, nor a magazine, much less the newspaper. let alone watching videos online, even the tv as well.
perhaps like where to shop and what to do for the day, the week, the month, the year, my life.
everyday is so mundane, and there's only one problem for me to ponder on.
i cant even see myself doing anything in 5 years' time. so much plans, too much restrictions as well.

all i want is just a carefree life, i dont want all these unseen burdens.

2007-06-06T11:33:00.000-07:00

i'm in a period of endless probation.
no matter how much effort i put in, it's still the same.

we went to the zoo the other day, like finally.
wasnt in the best of weather, but we had fun in the rain too.

we are 'at' the zoo zoo zoo, how abt you you you?

aint he jus cute? pls dont grow up like clif. haha.

a very lame caption that says, 'hello, im in aussie'

2007-06-01T03:37:00.000-07:00

I forgot to share the joy of having my internet back!
11 days!! do you know how difficult it was to survive 11 days without the cyber world? just what had technology done to me!!

so it was days of going out and not staying at home= spending money= totally broke.

ive got lots of photos to share though.

we were suppose to have a gathering with angel and hong today.

which was kinda of expected that angel did not turn up in the end. HONG I WON THE BET!!

We had dinner here.

the starter- jumbo combo 15bucks.

hip rooster, price forgotten.

hip sausage combo, 11.90

I think the food was quite nice, great service!

Afterwhich a few of us joined the guys for supper at chompchomp, alvin's treat.
I came home and further indulged on satays and a KFC burger. goodness gracious, i need a healthy diet.

For my own reference

2007-05-29T02:37:00.000-07:00

For my own reference.
Our graduation trip.

The highlight of the trip was of course, meeting my/our beloved xiao gui.

DAY 1
Setting off to TPE.

Lovelies who were there to see us off.

Our SQ 876.

Upon reaching CKS airport.

On our way to the hotel, we saw a whole truck of pigs. And being citykids, we were then behaving like frogs in the well.

tadah, i love this hotel.

Went on the 1st train ride to 剑潭站 and bus to miramar entertainment park.

i love carousel.

and lots of crazy poses.

We wanted to go clubbing that night but surprisingly, MOS was closed!! So we had to go ahead with plan B, the KTV!!

Self timed.

Flat screen leh.

the KTV is so cool man!! there's a cartoon grading system after every song. delicious food and topnotch service!

DAY 2
Started off with morning call at 8am despite slping at almost 5am.
Breakfast at the hotel.

Waiting for train to 国父纪念馆站.

At 国父纪念馆.

Afterwhich, we walked over to the living mall,京华城.

Carousel again!

totally addicted to this machine.

Took a bus to wufenpu, 五分埔.

五分埔

very heavy shopping bags.

Raohe St Night Mkt,饶河街夜市.

We had dinner at the smelly smelly pot.

a pot for 2.

Snake Alley place, Huaxi Night Mkt.

tasty icecream!

DAY 3
We had 永和豆浆 for breakfast and shopping at 西门町 after that.

Ettusais spree

While waiting for those toilet freaks. Haha.

On our way to 东区.

东区, where we met xiao gui!

Blind mices.

Jay's shop.

Taipei 101

Shida Night Market

we bought all these.

DAY4
Windy morning

Breakfast!

Spree at Taipei Main Station Undergrd Mall.

Lunchtime!

The long train ride to Danshui, we slp and pose dumb.

more ice cream and shop till drop for local product at danshui.

another endless shopping and eating at Shilin Night Market.

We made the hotel open their lil restaurant for our dabao-ed supper frm Shilin.

DAY 5
Checking out.

some last minute shopping.

our last bball game.

LASTLY
some stuff that i miss very much back thr in tpe.

the toy-grabbing machine, bball machine, 7eleven esp LE TEA, the KTV, the hotel room/bed, the xiaolongbao from DinTaiFung, mister donut and not forgetting XIAOGUI (scroll up for the pic agn for impact).

2007-05-28T21:59:00.000-07:00

hello everyone!
internet is still down.
blogging from a very pathetic place with WIFI with deni.
And that is SKCC!!!!

As usual, we had supper at xinwang because it's 24HR. AND I NEVER FAILED to drool (spit saliva) when i'm there.

And we broke the guiness record by squeezing 8 people (+ alvin who's driving) into his car!

2007-05-22T22:45:00.000-07:00

Internet down.
day5.
Arghhhhh!!!!!

2007-05-16T00:38:00.000-07:00

Day 5

Day 4

Day 3

Day 2

Day 1

Back to Singapore.
Not so much of Home Sweet Home.
I'd rather be back there at Taipei.
See the weight difference from Day1 to 5.
Left at 37kg, back at 38kg. Way to go. I need to gain 2 kgs back.

Pics from my sis' camera are almost all up and edited in my album.
Feel free to grab as thr are too much to send. Lots of patience required.

irritated.
sick.
tired.
i made everyone unhappy.
i cant make anyone happy and so i chose to let myself be the happy one.

2007-05-09T12:47:00.000-07:00

I'm sure i'm not suffering from amnesia.
I'm sure of what i had said and what i did not say at all.

Maybe i lost my mind.

I cant stand people who stereotype me and what makes you think that I am the follower? I am just me. I do what I like, I say what I want. Stop whatever shit that you are doing to me, right now.

2007-05-06T23:27:00.000-07:00

大家! Lets all stay healthy and virus-free to welcome our trip!

Cheers!
;)

2007-05-06T02:49:00.000-07:00

i'm close to getting well.
this close.

yay!!!
:)

2007-05-03T22:17:00.000-07:00

i know everyone is tired of this and i'm not trying to bore you.
but,
i desperately want to get well.
i hate throwing up everynight.
i hate feeling as though my face is decaying.

just kill me and save me from these tortures.

2007-05-02T20:43:00.000-07:00

i thought i was recovering but last night, nightmare began.
i think i caught the stomach flu! so it was vomit and diarrhea.
what is happening to me?
i told my dad i must have stepped on something dirty, you know, mokmok and i need to go to the temple.
my mum said someone put a curse on me though.

is it you?!
haha.

anyway, i've concluded that im really weird. my illogical way of thinking.
i'm sorry! now that i know i am to be blamed.

2007-04-30T10:16:00.000-07:00

this evening was family outing + outing with my flowers.
aug, charlene, clifton, dorothy, larrina and me!
we finally fulfilled rina's wish of watching the 200pounds korean movie.

it was quite a nice show, touching and meaning although predictable.
maria~

2007-04-29T22:56:00.000-07:00

You are not going to believe this. But yours truly here is still s-i-c-k! It's like 2 whole weeks, what the hell is wrong with ME?! I sit at home, shake my legs and i shake the whole load of illness out. Goodness gracious, aint i amazing?!

2007-04-23T01:47:00.001-07:00

I truly don't understand why some people can be so annoying, irritating and super duper irksome. Won't you just slow down your pace and reflect on your own doings? Do you think you are even being fair or just plain selfish? How could anyone be like that, like you?

Anyway, I finally went to see the doc after a week of torture. I hope I can really get well soon!

2007-04-23T00:46:00.000-07:00

My ah mah's birthday celebration last night, with lotsa of cam-shy relatives hiding behind the crowd.

What a feast, a pity for a sick cat like me. I couldn't talk when the whole table was asking me questions. I couldnt eat some of the yummy food. What's more? I cant even taste the crabs, lobsters, sharks fin and abalone? Everything is tasteless to me!!!!!!!! Sucha waste of food on me. Will anyone buy me a seafood feast when i'm well???

Happy Birthday Ah Mah!!!

2007-04-21T13:46:00.000-07:00

As requested by deni,
I want to thank this sweetie for being my personal nurse on the day of regetta. Taking care of me me and being my voice as well. :)

Day 5,
I lost my voice!!!! I've got this combo illness of fever, flu, sore throat and cough. I can't scream and cheer, and i cant eat due to the sore throat. Fever + sunburnt makes me feel as though i'm surrounded by an aura of heat, you know like living in an incubator which is not warm but HOT! So i'm sweating and sweating, like in a sauna and i lost 2 freaking kgs.

I want to EAT! I want to satisfy ALL MY FOOD CRAVINGS!

2007-04-19T17:21:00.000-07:00

I dont like that unfriendly glare which makes me question myself.

I have never been so sick and ugly in my whole entire life, like now.

2007-04-16T00:29:00.000-07:00

My pandora's box of secrets. Way too many to keep. I used to be a person of no-secrets, i mean my own secret, not you guys'. But now, everything is changed, changing. And I am still adapting. What to do, what not to do. What to say, what not to say.. too much restrictions, not my cup of tea.

Every lil things you say, every lil actions you do, affects me so much. I cant satisfy everyone. I am jus plain jane, not superwoman, not wondergirl. At the end of the day, we just want a happy ending to our lives. Each and every phase.

I cant help but to think i am a jinx. I dont believe that much in luck, i believe in effort. But still, it seems otherwise. I'm sorry for all the wrong words i had said, maybe i tried too hard, maybe it's just... i dont know.

But i am still, really, seriously, very affected.

And i am really, seriously, very free. (minus the 2 big events coming up soon).

*fake a smile.

2007-04-14T22:57:00.000-07:00

despite having a very high threshold of pain, i'm still a lil worried for the surgery (even though it's really a minor minor one). it's not the process that i'm afraid of, it's the aftermath. save me!!

day 9.
:)

5 more days.
:(

11 more days.
:(

26 more days.
:)

Happy 20th Birthday to Alvin!

2007-04-12T01:42:00.000-07:00

im sick and tired of feeling sick and tired/

2007-04-09T00:39:00.000-07:00

I guessed i'm a changed person.

For better or worse i'm not sure.

But its all because of u.

People at camps, especially my lovely flowers, have a great time!

While the rest of us, have a wonderful time exercising (and slacking)!

:)

2007-04-08T00:11:00.000-07:00

to cry or to laugh.
i can do both at the same time.

whats with obsession nowdays?

11 more days.

17 more days.

a mth & 2 more days.

2007-04-05T11:13:00.000-07:00

Ta dah! The DND 2007 pictures! All up and edited at the album!

I cant stand myself being the most tanned female.

The Sengkangrians batch #1,2 and 3.

Our happy family.

that's pretty, sunshine, gorgeous, babe and what else?

funny shot.

We wanted to have botak jones on monday, after their swimming as suggested by dear charlene. Amy drove us there and this was what we saw...

I'm here to promote auggie's workplace. This was what she bought. And even though I hate red apples, this is amazing!

They looked and tasted exactly like apples can?!

Ta-dah (again), my butt got stucked. I'm elmo.

2007-04-04T16:12:00.000-07:00

Oh gods.
I really need help now.
I really do.
I'm losing myself.
You're losing me.

2007-04-03T21:32:00.000-07:00

It was our beloved siew's birthday yesterday! We celebrated with breakfast- Dim Sum buffet at Dragon Gate Restaurant.

We had loads of food.

Those who were present, a pat on our back for waking up so early! Especially me! I slept only 2 hours. HAHA.

Miss Tan came and join us for TMNT. I dozed off during the show.

More pics at the photoalbum, grab them alright.

Shall nt bring camera again.

Doesn't pay to be kind. Oh well.
Did I care too much again?
If you can't help, just shut up and not make things difficult.

2007-04-01T17:49:00.000-07:00

I have finally finally consolidated and edited all the pictures for Amy's chalet!
Here's some of the pictures. For the rest, they are all in my photo album!

It's weird looking at the number of hours I'm sleeping now. This is supposed to be my vacation, but I'm actually getting as lil sleep as possible, even lesser than those days which I had to attend school.

This is for Rina.
I can't even rmb my first session of mahjong but I can rmb how lil times I had won which is like merely twice. I can't stand my luck. But I'm glad I can finally play on my own and even HU alright. Mahjong is like the one and only favourite past times of the SengKangrians, so much so that it's like going on every night. We also have enough 'legs' but just too lil tables. We need a gambling house.

okayokay, the pictures.

Happy 20th Birthday Amy!

this is like one of the most decent shot ever taken.

wonder why everyone looked so xat here.

this is the pic i cant stop laughing at.

kukus with specs.

Alright! DND pics coming up soon! :)

2007-03-23T15:45:00.000-07:00

I hope everyone had fun and ate alot! Especially amy, this was all for u! :)

2007-03-21T02:03:00.000-07:00

i dont wish to keep rambling on.
i've tried very hard to keep things right, keep things together.
but ultimately, it all did not turn out right. or rather its too soon to have an answer.
i put things together but only to see so many of you tearing them apart.

sometimes, an answer is not needed. an action, a word may just says it all.
why do you have to put yourself in a maze and force yourself to the end of world.

all we need to do is to be more understanding.

2007-03-20T01:44:00.000-07:00

I'm kind of pissed of because nobody seems to care what I care about.
I'm bothered by the fact that everyone turned their blind eyes.
Maybe they chose to runaway while I'm dumb enough to stay put.
Dumb enough to care.
Dumb enough to be bothered.
Dumb enough to be pissed.

At the end of the day, I'm still at the losing end.

tales-telling are not my forte, yet im still trying.

2007-03-18T16:23:00.000-07:00

I'm in so much pain now.
We had a great deal of fun at the Jurong swimming complex yday.
alan, alvin, dor and peter.
And now we are all like lobsters. Fun in exchange for pain.

I hope we all get out of this soon.

Now i shall spend time planning on the chalet.

2007-03-13T01:51:00.000-07:00

this is really getting on my nerves.

2007-03-12T00:11:00.000-07:00

I am officially crowned the unlucky queen. Stay away from me.

BBQ was satisfying due to the endless eating.

2007-03-09T02:00:00.000-08:00

hello everyone!
I had been living in hell.
A series of unfortunate events had happened.

First, my motorola was disfigured after sending it to A&E. A scratched and distorted motorola!

Next, my former 1 and half year old lappy was burnt! I put it on a cushion and it was short circuit after 2 hours. duh. Now I'm back here with my new lappy! Our whole family is going to live with congee from tmrw onwards. Perhaps just me. LONG LIVE NEW LAPPY!

* I managed to survive a week without internet!

Whats more? I fell down in my own bathroom!!!!!! Got a deep cut in my mouth and ugly bruises on my knees. And I almost fell down everyday after that. Thank god I'm still alive, right here telling you all my unlucky events.

Shoo shoo`

2007-03-06T08:55:00.000-08:00

my comp is down.
very down,underlying.
no updates for the moment til i got my new comp.
JING ROCKS!

2007-02-28T01:53:00.000-08:00

My achievement.
Our achievement.

Jogging from SengKang to Punggol.
Saimin and i.

:)

Dont you dare to forget our breakfast date! Haha.

I was eating craved-for-a-very-long-time chips when I came across this...

do you see a heart?

Fascinating! Alil eerie now. How did that shape ever appear?

2007-02-24T01:45:00.000-08:00

Boo.
Life is boring.
Yes teddy, I'm leading a very free and easy life now. Just like you!
Haha.

Okay, I had been keeping myself busy planning the graduation vacation. It's kinda getting on my nerves now. Nothing seems right. Too many ideas, too many places to go, too much restrictions BUT too lil money. Cash flow problem everywhere, everyone. We never seemed to know what's saving for rainy days. Our lives had been storms. That explains it.

My looney motorola is as good as dead. After giving it 2 days of chance, I sent it to the A&E department. Currently hospitalised, 3days. I hope you will not end up under the soil.

Last of all, I had decided not to go the JAL interview. I guess being an air stewardess is not what I really wanted in life. I sent the application just to try my luck. Bye JAL. See you when I travel to Japan. Save your scoldings my family and friends.

Happy mugging to my girls who will be having their exams soon. And for us, the slackers for the moment, happy lazing around.

i pray to sleep well every night.

2007-02-22T00:25:00.000-08:00

Happy CNY!!

It's funny when the relatives stop wishing 学业进步, it makes me feels kinda of old. But anyway, I requested them to wish me 快高长大 instead, though I wanted the 快高 but not the 长大. Oh well.

We had lotsa of fun during reunion at Dor's place on 初三. Pictures not sent to me yet.

Not forgetting the first 2 days at my granny's place.

Hands of the young and old.

I guess I must have had drawn a BAD card.

Before.

After.

:)

Had been out these 2 days. Caught 2 movies. Norbit & Dream Girls, don't we just love eddie murphy? Go catch them! I love these 2 shows. I LOVE BEYONCE! I just made her my idol of 2007.

2007-02-17T20:18:00.000-08:00

Oh my god oh my god!
Fancy getting this letter on new year's eve.
Tell me is this good news or not.
I'm so freaking out.
And I need all the I luck I can ever have.

May god bless me for the interview!
No eating for New Year.

2007-02-15T02:54:00.000-08:00

I did something amazing.
I actually submitted my research paper a day before the deadline!
So much effort for the last assignment ever in my 3 years of Poly life.
Well well, I'm already bidding good riddance to P-O-L-Y.

The school I ought to miss.

This 3years is/was the unluckiest period of my life. Perhaps it's because I had sucha wonderful secondary school life and it's time I ought to suffer. But anyway, I'm glad it o-v-e-r. Okay, about to be o-v-e-r. Can you believe it?!

Anyway, happy belated vday to everyone.... The best vday was also during secondary school days. Was that sec 3 or 4? We all had so much fun that day, and I can't believe I actually forgot the actual year.
****

Last Saturday was like the happiest day I had since internship started, minus the NAPFA test. I passed, but I didn't really put in effort for a GOLD. Maybe I did get a Gold, not sure though. Peeps having the test tmrw, greatest luck! And my lucky 0909!!! Strike lottery okay!

Afterwhich I met my girls for shopping sprees! I would definitely prefer shopping online. I hate the crowd! We had a great girls' night after sending away the guys. Oh, they actually chose to leave on their own accord. Anyway, we appreciated it. We walked all the way from Kovan to SengKang, sending each other home. I think I could have just walked on and on and on. I LOVE THE BREEZE!

*How many pancakes do you see?

I've been playing this stupid game with my sister. I'm so grateful that she actually entertained me. Haha.

2007-02-07T02:08:00.000-08:00

It's funny how some things change, and how some remain.
Things that ought to be change, remained.
Vice versa,
those that were supposed to remain, changed.

Tell me what the future holds.
Show me how it would be like.

I've seen the ugly side of life, let me see something new.

I'm so tempted to be ignorant.

2007-02-03T21:13:00.000-08:00

Hey friends,
Capture some memories.
Just in case the computer crashes or anything.
*touch wood.

Thank you for all the fun & memories.
:)

click on the new link.
pls do not ask me to remove anything.

2007-02-01T23:28:00.000-08:00

Too tired of trying and thus, I chose to be indifferent, to be apathetic.

Whatever left is the past. Maybe we might fail our 10 year promise. But I really couldn't care anymore.

We can still laugh, we can still talk. But perhaps, that's all.

I don't see it as a waste, I just see it as a part and parcel of growing up. If you couldn't care more, I would just care less. You might think that I'm totally ridiculous, suits you. You can even blame me, I seriously couldnt give a damn anymore. I gave all that I could, I used up all my strength, my forgiveness, my magnanimous, my understanding.

You don't mean what you say, you said for the sake of saying. Days passes, and you forgets. I'm used to it. I'm tired of it. Yes, I'm not angry,, I'm not pissed. You know what, you don't deserve for me to be angry, pissed or even to vexed over. Give me a break.

If that is all that I deserve.
If that is how much I mean to you.
If that is how you think about me.

I said, I do not care anymore.
We're quits.

If this is what you want. I think you deserve this. I think you ought to be alone. You'll be great alone. That's the kind of person you are. You don't like commitment. You don't. I know you will be happy this way, my friend.

从习惯，厌倦，反感，到无可奈何。

2007-01-29T02:51:00.000-08:00

Life is short.
Life is fragile, isn't it?
*****

Internship is OVER. Internship is now a past tense.
Bittersweet.
Bitter because I miss working with my dearest GB (Farissa, Li Hiang and Cynthia), Weiting and Cindy. This process would not be the same without them. They are why I looked forward to work everyday.
Sweet because, hell is finally over. I always say internship is a waste of my time, a waste of my youth. I do nothing, free & easy. Brain dead for that 20 weeks.

Now I feel uneasy not going to the airport. Not seeing my friends there everyday.
Farissa, my most compatible partner. Filled with shits & laughters, never failed to brighten our days. Although we always say mean things to each other, but that was all jokes.

Li Hiang, we crowned her our team leader of every month though we were supposed to take turns to be leader. Always laughing at my stupid jokes. Whenever she's on MC, we create havoc.

Cynthia, our nutritionist. Bringing us food and fruits throughout the internship, making sure we dun eat too much fast food- which she kinda failed. Cuz we all gained weight.

Cindy and Weiting, not part of our team, but I always looked forward working with every 4 days. Running after the bus together after work and endless gossiping sessions.

So much memories. We even had a celebration on the last day. Some seniors were nice enough to buy us food. :)

Pictures up soon.

I'm still traumatized.

2007-01-23T01:23:00.000-08:00

International Cuisines.
Monday- Japanese
Tuesday- Hong Kong
Wednesday- Italian
Thursday- Thai
Friday- Italian again!

Talk about losing weight...

2007-01-21T01:52:00.000-08:00

You know what?!

I WENT JOGGING JUST NOW!

:)

Quit raining so I can exercise more!

2007-01-19T02:56:00.000-08:00

somehow, i feel that all the care and concerns were superficial.

will someone knock some sense into both you and i.

6 more working days.

i just want to lie down on the beach,
and look at the sky,
the sky which look as though someone
had spilled glitters on.